The Farm

So I've posted before about my Gram and the farm . . . but I talked to my cousin today and she said the property was listed online. For close to $4,ooo,ooo. FOUR MILLION. Can you imagine? Can you even fucking imagine that kind of money?

I can't. Not only in general, but especially in the case. I never thought that a place of such childhood significance and beauty and all around importance could be given a price tag.

But apparently it can.

And all her family members have yet to even see/enter the property. ::sigh:: Family politics. I just want closure, that's all.



So, I surriously thought about bombarding Wench's journal with a ridiculous amount of Bowie.  As a courtesy, I will stash some good'ins here.  Note:  I will be posting on lyrical merit alone; these aren't necessarily the songs I like best musically . . . 

"Always Crashing in the Same Car"

Every chance, every chance that I take
I take it on the road
Those kilometers and the red lights
Oh, but I'm always crashing in the same car . . .


For in truth, it's the beginning of nothing
And nothing has changed
Everything has changed

For in truth, it's the beginning of an end
And nothing has changed
Everything has changed


. . . I'm sinking in the quicksand of my thought
And I ain't got the power anymore

Don't believe in yourself
Don't deceive with belief
Knowledge comes with death's release . . . 

I'm not a prophet or a stone age man
Just a mortal with the potential of a superman
I'm living on
I'm tethered to the logic of Homo Sapien
Can't take my eyes from the great salvation 
Of bullshit faith . . . 



President Elect Barack Obama's Acceptance Speech
Grant Park, Chicago
November 4th, 2008

If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible; who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time; who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

It's the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen; by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the very first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different; that their voice could be that difference.

It's the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled - Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been a collection of Red States and Blue States: we are, and always will be, the United States of America.

It's the answer that led those who have been told for so long by so many to be cynical, and fearful, and doubtful of what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day.

It's been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this day, in this election, at this defining moment, change has come to America.

I just received a very gracious call from Senator McCain. He fought long and hard in this campaign, and he's fought even longer and harder for the country he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine, and we are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader. I congratulate him and Governor Palin for all they have achieved, and I look forward to working with them to renew this nation's promise in the months ahead.

I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton and rode with on that train home to Delaware, the Vice President-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.

I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last sixteen years, the rock of our family and the love of my life, our nation's next First Lady, Michelle Obama. Sasha and Malia, I love you both so much, and you have earned the new puppy that's coming with us to the White House. And while she's no longer with us, I know my grandmother is watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight, and know that my debt to them is beyond measure.

To my campaign manager David Plouffe, my chief strategist David Axelrod, and the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics - you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you've sacrificed to get it done.

But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to - it belongs to you.

I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn't start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington - it began in the backyards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston.

It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had to give five dollars and ten dollars and twenty dollars to this cause. It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation's apathy; who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep; from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on the doors of perfect strangers; from the millions of Americans who volunteered, and organized, and proved that more than two centuries later, a government of the people, by the people and for the people has not perished from this Earth. This is your victory.

I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century. Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us. There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after their children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage, or pay their doctor's bills, or save enough for college. There is new energy to harness and new jobs to be created; new schools to build and threats to meet and alliances to repair.

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even one term, but America - I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you - we as a people will get there.

There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as President, and we know that government can't solve every problem. But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree. And above all, I will ask you join in the work of remaking this nation the only way it's been done in America for two-hundred and twenty-one years - block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.

What began twenty-one months ago in the depths of winter must not end on this autumn night. This victory alone is not the change we seek - it is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were. It cannot happen without you.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism; of service and responsibility where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves, but each other. Let us remember that if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers - in this country, we rise or fall as one nation; as one people.

Let us resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long. Let us remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House - a party founded on the values of self-reliance, individual liberty, and national unity. Those are values we all share, and while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress. As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, "We are not enemies, but friends...though passion may have strained it must not break our bonds of affection." And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn - I may not have won your vote, but I hear your voices, I need your help, and I will be your President too.

And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of our world - our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand. To those who would tear this world down - we will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security - we support you. And to all those who have wondered if America's beacon still burns as bright - tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from our the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity, and unyielding hope.

For that is the true genius of America - that America can change. Our union can be perfected. And what we have already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.

This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that's on my mind tonight is about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She's a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing - Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldn't vote for two reasons - because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.

And tonight, I think about all that she's seen throughout her century in America - the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can't, and the people who pressed on with that American creed: Yes we can.

At a time when women's voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.

When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs and a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.

She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that "We Shall Overcome." Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination. And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change. Yes we can.

America, we have come so far. We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves - if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?

This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment. This is our time - to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American Dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth - that out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope, and where we are met with cynicism, and doubt, and those who tell us that we can't, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people:

Yes We Can. Thank you, God bless you, and may God Bless the United States of America.



These past two weeks have been nothing short of the longest rollercoaster I can recollect. First, I have a week or so long fight/argument with Ed about buying a new car, financial prowess, and how our life choices affect who we are. We don't exactly have a meeting of the minds, but we're good. Then, I get fired from my job. Note, during the whole fiscal nonsense, I defended my employment. Irony, I has it. Now today, after speaking with my boss' boss, I'm still employed. I was never fired. Everything will be as it was, only different. I am . . . overwhelmed with everything that has occurred, so much so I can't even really document it. I was so ready to advocate for myself and do what I had to do to be heard, and I actually was. It was surprising. I wasn't prepared for a reprieve. I embrace it, of course. And will make the most of it. It's just so strange. So very strange.


These Amuse Me . . .

. . . and I don't know why.  From Wenchie.

1.  Ever been given an engagement ring?  No.  Expecting one in the nearish future, but no pressing plans.
2.  Longest relationship?  Goin' on 5 years.  Love my Ed.
3.  Last gift you received?  Mom paid for my car insurance.  It's great being an adult.
4.  Ever dropped a cellphone?  Many times.
5.  Last time you worked out?  Ha.
6.  Thing(s) you spend a lot of money on?  Student loans.  Biggest expense.  ::sigh::
7.  Last food you ate?  Slice of Vermont cheddar from the Deli at Giant.  
8.  First thing you notice about the opposite sex?  Silly question, really.  Everyone sizes up people at first glance innately.  
9.  One favourite song?  "New Soul" by Yael Naim has been in my head.
10.  Where do you live?  PA.  So you better be nice to me, I hear my vote is quite consequential.
11.  High school you attended:  OJR.
12.  Cellphone service provider:  Verizon.  They be good to me.  Ever checked out the GPS feature?  I don't know how I ever lived without it.
13.  Favourite mall store:  I'm not big on shopping.  I will admit that Hot Topic amuses me however.  Now that it's cool and mainstream though it really has lost its awesome for me.
14.  Longest job you had:  I worked for dining services at college for four years.  Kick ass.
15.  Do you own a pair of dice?  I have a 20-sided die for keeping track of my life in Magic . . . (^_^)'
16.  Do you prank call people?  I watch /b/ do so with relish.
17.  Last wedding you attended?  J & D's, 2004.  It's been a while.
18.  First friend you'd call if you won the lottery:  I dunno.  I would probably call my lenders first, lawl.
19.  Last time you saw your best friend?  Ugh, see previous posts.
20.  Favourite fast food restaurant:  Um, I dunno.  I grew up a McDonald's kid.  I don't really want to discuss fatty fat fatness.
21.  Biggest lie you have ever heard:  I make sure not to hold on to negativity for long.
22.  Where's your favourite place to eat with friends?  Pat's.
23.  Can you cook?  If by cook you mean follow the instructions on a label.
24.  What car do you drive?  As of yesterday, I am the proud owner of a Chevy Aveo!  Beep beep!
25.  Best kisser?  I haven't kissed everyone, so I can't possibly know.
26.  Last time you cried?  Yesterday.  But let's really not discuss why yet.
27.  Most disliked foods:  sourkraut, however you spell it.  Ed harasses me for disliking cheesecake.
28.  Thing you like most about yourself:  going to agree with wench - resilience.  Endurance.  
29.  Thing you dislike most about yourself:  Gah.  A lot.
30.  Longest shift you have worked at a job?  A "suicide" at the ol' Gateway of 12 hours.
31.  Favourite movie?  Too many to decide.  
32.  Can you sing?  Well.
33.  Last concert attended?  I believe it was Sarah Brightman with Ed?  Either that or Bernadette Peters.
34.  Last kiss?  Ed.
35.  Last movie rented?  Ha, Ed ordered "Rescuers Down Under" by mistake.  It was a good dose of nostalgia.
36.  One thing you'd never leave the house without:  cellphone.
37.  Favourite vacation spot:  Daytona Beach, FL was fabulous.
38.  Laptop or desktop computer?  Love my desktop, but Ed's new Navi is quite the treat.  There's nothing like surfing the web laying down.
39.  Favourite comedian:  Robin Williams, Brian Reagan, Dane Cook, various others.
40.  Do you smoke?  Occasionally.  
41.  Sleep with or without clothes?  I prefer to be in clothes.
42.  Who sleeps with you every night?  Ed and TOBIAS!  Don't tell Ed he wasn't in caps too.
43.  Do long distance relationships work?  I've never really had one.
44.  How many times have you been pulled over by the police?  Once.  And he was courteous enough to assume I had been drinking rather than asking me. 
45.  Pancakes or French Toast?  Pancakes.  Although Denny's French Toast has been trying to vie for my order.
46.  Do you like coffee?  Hazelnut, please!
47.  How do you like your eggs?  Scrambled or omeleted, please.
48.  Do you believe in Astrology?  I've never really delved into it, but I believe the patterns and cyclical nature are of note.
49.  Last person you talked to on the phone?  Becki.  
50.  Last person on your missed call list?  Probably Bern.
51.  What was the last text you received?  "Good luck" from Crystal.  
52.  Number of pillows?  Two.
53.  What are you wearing right now?  3/4 sleeve shirt, earth tones.  Jeans.  Jeans coming off very soon.  Screw you jeans.
54.  Pick a lyric, any lyric:  We're listening to Queen right now . . . 
"Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe . . . "
55.  What kind of jelly do you like on your PB&J?  I switch it up, get something different every time I get a new jar.  Always the all fruit stuff though.  Eff Smuckers. Found mold in a jar upon opening.
56.  Can you play pool?  Yeah.  Won't win though.
57.  Can you swim?  Love swimming.
58.  Favourite ice cream:  Mint chocolate chip.
59.  Do you like maps?  I have no need of them.
60.  Tell a random fact about yourself:  I don't know what normal is.  In a very serious sense.
61.  Ever attend a theme party?  A pirate party, arrrrrr!
62.  What is your favourite season?  Spring.
63.  Last time you laughed at something stupid:  /b/, most likely.
64.  What time did you wake up this morning?  9ish.
65.  Best thing about winter?  Used to be snow days, but adults don't get those.  Used to be sledding at Grammie's, but she doesn't exist anymore.
66.  Name of your first pet?  Don't remember.  It was a goldfish.  
67.  Do you think pirates are cool or overrated?  They coo' with me.
68.  What are you doing this weekend?  Job hunting.  Let's not discuss it.
69.  Birthdate:  May 12.
70.  What do you want to be?  Me.  Well.

Done with this.